“I’m not exactly sure who I’m looking for, I wish I knew, I wonder if I could ever find someone like me. If I did, I would probably kill them.”
"Dancing sort of brought me out of myself. Before I started dancing, I felt really physically awkward too. Not comfortable with my body. So what it does for me is twofold. I feel I can purge bad things when I exercise & I also feel better physically. I feel superior, I feel like a warrior."
"I’m not really interested in dildos. I like the human body. I like flesh. I like things that are living, breathing & a finger will do just fine. I’ve never owned a vibrator."
"Originally, when I recorded the song, I would play it over and over, trying to get a visual sense of what sort of story it evoked in me. I kept imagining this story about a girl who was madly in love with a black man, set in the South, with this forbidden interracial love affair & the guy she’s in love with sings in a choir. She’s obsessed with him & goes to church all the time & then it turned into a bigger story, which was about racism & bigotry. I wanted to put something in about Ku Klux Klan, use burning crosses but then Mississippi Burning came out & I realized I was hitting the nail on the head a little too hard. Too obvious. So I thought I should take a slightly different approach. My original idea was much sadder. Kind of: this is reality & reality sucks. Mary Lambert got involved as the director, & she came up with a story that incorporated more of the religious symbolism I originally wrote into the song. The whole album has a lot of religious imagery in it. The video still has the sadness, but it’s got a hopeful ending. I had these ideas about me running away with the black guy & both of us getting shot in the back by the KKK. Completely insane. Mary made it more palatable."
"I’m a very tormented person, I have a lot of demons I’m wrestling with, but I want to be happy. I have moments of happiness. I can’t say I’m never happy. I’m working towards knowing myself & I’m assuming that will bring me happiness. I’m slowly getting rid of the demons. I don’t think you can truly be loved until you know & love yourself. Then you can be truly loved & that’s what I want."